Feeling tired & emotional.

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My youngest started nursery this week, only and hour a day for the first week, and gradually building up to a full morning in two weeks time.
My eldest starts into a senior class in her school today. When did my girls grow up? 
Pea pods first morning in nursery went well she bounded into nursery saying hello to the teacher, played in the sand pit, and had explore around the outdoor play area. All the while saying "come on mammy lets go and look" 
Her second day arrived and she was excited to get her uniform on and go, albeit at 830am and her hour at nursery didn't start till 1045am. When we arrived she sat with me for ten minutes and then went off to explore on her own, I stayed in the classroom and watched her playing outside with her teacher and other kiddies, like a lioness watching her cubs on a first outing, waiting to pounce at the first sign of distress. There was none! My little girl hardly even noticed I wasn't right by her side.

Today is her third day and today I plan to take her in and leave, I thought this would be easy as she's an extremely independent little girl.  My eldest also returns to school today, and thought that would be easy too as she simply adores school. 

 However last night I simply could not get to sleep, round and round in my head, scenarios of eldest being on transport with new people and her having a meltdown, into a new class with people she doesn't know and a possible meltdown. My youngest needing me at nursery and me not being there.  I'm sure this is being blown out of proportion by my overly worrying mind. I was in bed for 930 last night got up at 630 this morning and still only managed 3 hours sleep.   

Anyway it's time to sign off for now, so as always hugs your kiddies tight today.  I guess I'll blog again soon to say how it's gone. 

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